Making friends

These few days I was kinda bored out so I decided to occupy my free time by reading a book..

I came across a book call Making Friends by Andrew Matthews..

After what I've been through about 2 weeks ago..

This book seem very relevant to me LOL

It was quite a good book after all..

Make us realise things that we know but do not apply..

Make me realise a few things..

Will there be changes to how I treat people in the future? LOL

Well maybe?

Maybe I'll change for the better =)

I do hope so haha..

And I hope I could remember those tips..

Because right now I've sort of forgotten it all xD

Anyways its a good way to spend the free time..

And its been a long time since I've read a book for leisure purposes..

Maybe I'll start my reading momentum again..

Next book..

Twenties Girl by Sophie Kinsella xD

Deja vu..

About a year ago, I did a speech regarding friendship. I was nervous, heart thumping furiously and I end up forgetting my whole speech all together. I stood up there and crafted an entire different speech. Totally different from what I prepared but the message is still there. I poured out my real emotions at that time and I continue on with my speech as my tears drip one by one.

Yesterday, I redid my CC4. Used less than 4 hours to craft and memorise my speech. I never thought I would revert back to who I am a year ago with this speech. Although I'd finished the whole CC already but last night I felt the same nervousness. The same thumping of my heart.

As I stood in front, I was totally blank. Although I had notes beside me but I restrained myself from looking and I did what I'd done a year ago. I recrafted my whole speech on the spot. One bad thing about recrafting my speech on the spot is that I will end up pouring too much of my real emotions. Once again I delivered my speech as I let my tears drip down.

I may have advance a lot compared to the me a year ago. But no matter how far I go. I still will have a lot more to learn. I guess from my speech last night, it had driven up my interest and passion in improving myself, the form to deliver speeches which I had lost ever since I finished my CC.

Seeing my friend who is so enthusiastic to finish her CC is like looking back at myself. The me who was being pushed to do speeches. The me who was put under pressure and yet I didn't mind. I lost that side of me after finishing my CC. The me now refused to be put under pressure thus losing the enthusiasm that I once had.

For the first time, I will take up the courage to see my video. I'll be posting it up here soon. The speech that made me cry again in front of an audience..

Speeches..

It has been a very long time since I last post up my speeches..

Well to be honest I have been taking a long time off after finishing my CC but right now I guess I'm sort of back on track =)

I had finished another 2 more of my advanced communicator speech quite long ago in fact but just didn't have the time to post them up so I'm gonna do it now xD

For my Advanced Communicator Bronze I had chosen The Entertaining Speaker manual

Here are my two speeches.

One of a kind.



Am I...?

Hope you guys like it =)



Time flies..

Time flies..

In a blink of an eye..

Half a year has gone by..

We've gone through many ups and downs in these 6 months..

But thank you for being with me =)

Thank you for the sweet half year anniversary present <3

First love

Someone showed me this video and this songs brings back so many memories..

I remember this is the few FIRST japanese songs that I like and ever since then I started to listen to japanese songs..

And the one person that introduced that song to me is my dear friend Chen Ni.

She is the person who influenced me to like all things japanese.

Anime, manga, jap songs, jap dramas and even sushi..

I started to like all these because of her.

Thank you for adding the japanese culture in my life xD

Saxophone..

I guess you could say this instrument have been a part of my life even before I stepped foot on earth..

Its because I was told that my mum listens to Kenny G's songs when I was still in her womb.

Well, saxophone music was buried deep in my subconscious..

 Soon it became just a normal music and not exactly the type I usually listens to..

However, after spending time with the person who enjoys playing music especially the saxophone..

I started to listen to saxophone music more and now its become one of my favourite instrument to listen to..

And after attending several jazz concerts I've come to like jazz as well =)

I feel at peace and safe listening to these music maybe cause it reminds me of being in my mother's womb..

safe and protected..

*My sentence came out weird xD hope you guys dun take it the wrong way LOL*

There are alot of first times for me and all these first times had become the things I love right now and perhaps something I love for a lifetime =)



Stuck in between..

I really really hate being stuck in between..

stuck between arguments of 2 friends..

stuck between 2 important people in my life who used to be so close but now are like strangers..

and today im stuck in between again..

this time is between the management people of my college =.=

I'm stuck in between although I have nothing to do with the situation and I have no say in it at all.

It had totally nothing to do with me and yet both of these people is making me sound like I'm the bad guy.

I just ask a simple question and the reply made it sound like its my fault for it being this way.

Just because I'm in the student council doesn't mean I'm involve in all those management conflict.

I have no say or any authority in this matter and I do not have any clue of what is going on.

I can take the blame if I'm really the one at fault but I just hate being accused and treated this way when I did nothing wrong.

And what hurts most is one of the party that treated me that way was someone whom I look up to and admired.

 A person I become quite fond of and it hurts so much to see that person treating me like I'm the bad guy and filled every sentence and every word with thorns. 

Currently I'm really hating college life. I hate all those conflicts that are going round and wish to just graduate and go to work. But going to work may not be the best option as work will also have conflict and I really hate conflict especially being inside it. All my life I never thought of becoming a housewife. I want to have a successful career of my own and not rely on anyone. But right now, for the first time in my life, being a rich housewife might not sound like a bad idea anymore..

Debate

Never in my life would I thought I would be in a debate one day..

but thanks to toastmasters I did LOL

and unbelievably I won!

but thats because I have a very experience toastmaster as my partner xD

I feel that joining toastmasters, joining Achievers is probably one thing that I would never regret..

Thanks to toastmasters and my club Achievers I have achieved so much..

and it had led me to trying out things that I've never thought I had the courage to do..

It made me speak in front of an audience..something really out of my expectations..

It made me confident in taking up leadership roles..

and now it made me participated in a debate

It is definitely a great experience..

although I was blur about what is going on in that debate and needed alot of impromptu speeches..

but I feel I did not bad LOL

I also get to work with an ang moh

who to me is too geng and intimidating LOL

but I found out he was actually quite nice

and thanks to him my team won xD

and he really put me to awe when I see him speak during the debate..

he can speak so fluently and even make people laugh..

wonder if I could be like that one day =)

Thank you to the guy who gave me the confidence and courage to try out new things..

The guy who brought me to toastmasters =)