The feeling is back again..

If you all still remember..

several months ago..I wrote a post about wanting to disappear..

well that feeling came back again..

It feels like no matter what I do everything is wrong..

and I end up becoming a hindrance to others..

I made people mad..

I made people hate me..

and worst of all..

I probably made that one person's life a living hell..

I've always had problems conveying my feelings and what I really wanted to say..

and I guess I still fail in that aspect even after joining toastmasters..

because of my choice of words..

I started to hurt other people's feelings..

I'm now starting to realise the reason why I prefer to be the quiet girl who seem to disappear into the background..

its because I wouldn't say the wrong things and end up where I am today..

Maybe I really should disappear into the background..

as if there is no such existence of someone named Khaw Shu Zian..