Making friends

These few days I was kinda bored out so I decided to occupy my free time by reading a book..

I came across a book call Making Friends by Andrew Matthews..

After what I've been through about 2 weeks ago..

This book seem very relevant to me LOL

It was quite a good book after all..

Make us realise things that we know but do not apply..

Make me realise a few things..

Will there be changes to how I treat people in the future? LOL

Well maybe?

Maybe I'll change for the better =)

I do hope so haha..

And I hope I could remember those tips..

Because right now I've sort of forgotten it all xD

Anyways its a good way to spend the free time..

And its been a long time since I've read a book for leisure purposes..

Maybe I'll start my reading momentum again..

Next book..

Twenties Girl by Sophie Kinsella xD

Deja vu..

About a year ago, I did a speech regarding friendship. I was nervous, heart thumping furiously and I end up forgetting my whole speech all together. I stood up there and crafted an entire different speech. Totally different from what I prepared but the message is still there. I poured out my real emotions at that time and I continue on with my speech as my tears drip one by one.

Yesterday, I redid my CC4. Used less than 4 hours to craft and memorise my speech. I never thought I would revert back to who I am a year ago with this speech. Although I'd finished the whole CC already but last night I felt the same nervousness. The same thumping of my heart.

As I stood in front, I was totally blank. Although I had notes beside me but I restrained myself from looking and I did what I'd done a year ago. I recrafted my whole speech on the spot. One bad thing about recrafting my speech on the spot is that I will end up pouring too much of my real emotions. Once again I delivered my speech as I let my tears drip down.

I may have advance a lot compared to the me a year ago. But no matter how far I go. I still will have a lot more to learn. I guess from my speech last night, it had driven up my interest and passion in improving myself, the form to deliver speeches which I had lost ever since I finished my CC.

Seeing my friend who is so enthusiastic to finish her CC is like looking back at myself. The me who was being pushed to do speeches. The me who was put under pressure and yet I didn't mind. I lost that side of me after finishing my CC. The me now refused to be put under pressure thus losing the enthusiasm that I once had.

For the first time, I will take up the courage to see my video. I'll be posting it up here soon. The speech that made me cry again in front of an audience..