I'm all messed up..

I guess being busy isn't bad after all..

Yesterday afternoon I met up with the rest of the project team I'm in to prepare for the activity.

It is for a Valentine's day event =) 

too bad I couldn't make it on the day of the event as I have work to go to..

however I do hope it will be a successful event =D

Later at night..

I went to Straits Quay to meet up with the SSDs =D

However..we ended up detouring to gurney as there was nothing to eat at Straits Quay =(

But it was fun..

we had dinner at 7 bistro..

as usual traffic was hell at gurney and finding a carpark is even worse @@

After our dinner, we coincidently met Ling Yen!

At first she said she couldn't make it as she had to go out with her family..

but it was such a coincidence to meet her there =D

and so we went to watch a malaysian movie "Great Day"

For the first time I actually felt Malaysian movie's quality had increased..

it was quite nice..

made me cry a few drops here and there..

and it was also hilarious at some parts =D

Overall its really a nice movie to me.

I reached home around 12 something and seriously walking around the carpark at night when it was almost deserted is really scary @@

Luckily I had Ling Yen with me.

The next day *which is today*

I had work to go to..

it was as usual..

but as I was driving back alone..

I suddenly thought of some things..

and instantly my mood takes a 180 degrees change..

I realised being in a foul mood can seriously cause alot of things..

It enables me to have a really cold expression on my face..

It can make me scream at the top of my lungs..

It can make me cry in a matter of seconds..

and it can make me do things that I weren't when I was sober..

I realised I had the tendency to speed a little when I was in a bad mood..

and I become more daring..

Of course the road back today was as usual really jam..

so I couldn't exactly speed..

but I do realise one thing..

My driving is much better and steadier when I'm in a bad mood =P

I know it sounds weird but its true..

of course I don't recommend someone to be in that car with me at that time =P

but perhaps I would be able to control myself if there were others with me..

My feelings..

My emotions..

Its seriously all messed up..

How I wish to return to the time when everything was simple..

When things weren't this complicated..

After I reached home..

I guess I must really worn myself out..

I dozed off while having the tv on..

and I didn't even notice when my mum calls me..

usually I will..

But I guess..

tiring myself to sleep..

is still better than crying myself to sleep..

To all my friends..

I'm really sorry for all these emo posts nowadays..

I know its unlike me at all..

Well don't worry too much for me..

I'll be fine and I'll be able to get over it =)

The reason why I'm blogging its just to let it out..

not to worry others..

So I'll still be strong and put on smile..

and be the cheerful like I once was =)